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Once again Meal Train has done its magic, as after I wrote that post Monday evening and purged those thoughts, things have felt more manageable since. It still amazes me how very therapeutic I now find writing, when I wasn't a huge writer before Kendall's illness. Tuesday and today have felt...well, OK. Still hard moments, but generally doing OK. There continue to be evidences of how God…

My mother passed away on Friday. I don't want to talk about any of those details in this Meal Train forum, other than to say that I was able to be there when it happened, as well as the days leading up to her passing. It was a privilege to get to participate in her care, to honor her and express my love in that way. There…

I've mentioned that I have always been a "do-er." (Pretty obvious if you have ever met me.) I can make things happen, and have usually been driven to do so. Hand in hand with that, though, I could probably also have been classified as a "fix-er." Kenny and I used to laugh at the stereotype that men are always trying to find solutions to things, because in…

Life is such a complicated, often messy, amazing composite of our individual choices and experiences. Yet how often are we given the luxury to recognize, in that very moment, how life-altering one single decision will end up being? Sure, in looking back over our lives we can likely identify where those hinge points were, the ones that ended up setting our life on a completely different course…

Has it been obvious that I like to think (or talk, or write) through things? I also like being prepared when I can. I don't think it's totally a matter of wanting to have control, or even just a way to manage anxiety. I simply like having things I know I can DO, ways to channel my energy and feel like I'm helping or improving or making…

I mean, really the surprising thing was that I managed to go more than two years without catching COVID, even when it was in my home. And let's not forget the fact that I work in peoples' mouths! But yes, I did indeed test positive for COVID this morning. The good news? None of the kids have symptoms and are currently testing negative. Having my own bathroom…

Does that seem like a funny thing to say about myself? Especially when I didn't mean it sarcastically, I do actually believe it. Last Saturday I was out with a friend, and in our conversation I casually said, "I mean, 'cause I'm amazing." She stopped, looked at me, and asked, "You can just say that about yourself, with no hesitation?" I hadn't even thought about it beforehand,…

I'm trying to routinely stop and ask myself how I am doing with being fully present in the various moments of my life. That's been especially important with some of the dissociation I have had at times with trauma and PTSD responses. I want to know, am I embracing all of my experiences, even the difficult ones? Each day brings its own full list of demands and…

The kids and I are calling this our "rebooting summer." While thankfully we have not ever COMPLETELY crashed, never been all systems down, it has felt like we've been stuck in buffering mode during this past year. We got through last summer and the school year, but too often only just barely making it by the skin of our teeth. It's been unrelentingly chaotic trying to get…

This picture was taken nearly 21 years ago, on the day that I was able to go through with Kenny and do my own work in the temple. Temple work is very important within the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, where we are able to make sacred promises (covenants) with God that make it possible for us to be with our families even after death.…